It has now been a little over a week since my eye surgery, and though everything went perfectly, I am still plagued by headaches, eyeaches, and a vague general tiredness. I also have to be very careful with my “new” eyes, so it has really limited what I can do. I have been unable to work, exercise, write, or blog. I have rarely checked my email,
stocked browsed on Facebook, or kicked the usual ass on Words with Friends. I have also not been allowed to wear make-up, wash my face or really even shower. Also, because I haven’t been feeling so hot, I have had to turn down various social engagements. For the past week I have really been able to do little more than take care of my daughter. And you know what… it’s been fucking awesome.
All of the things that I listed above are things that I actually really enjoy doing. But having an excuse to NOT do them for an entire week has been such a relief. I feel more relaxed than I have felt in a really long time. It’s amazing how much time I have when I am not constantly racing off to exercise, work, shower, blog or catch up with friends on Facebook. I have spent a lot of quality time with my daughter without having to check my phone or email. I have gotten a lot of errands done that I have been putting off for a while now. I have logged more than a few hours on my couch watching silly TV. Yesterday I even… wait for it… sat down and ate lunch. An entire lunch. While sitting down. Can you imagine?! It’s been a while.
This forced “vacation” has been great. I am totally relaxed, completely at ease, and absolutely bored. Now, I can’t wait to get to back to the rat race. I need the stress. I crave the chaos! (Please remind me of this when I am bemoaning the stress and chaos of the future. Actually, don’t remind me unless you like a good slap in the face. I have a tendency to lash out when I am stressed.)
I have discovered that I like my life as busy, messy and full as possible. So watch out world… I am rested, determined, inspired, and I can see the shit out of you.